Tuesday, March 10, 2009
~Mixed Fellings~
I am having mix feelings right now....
Not sure of what to do...
Why am I feeling this way?
The emptiness that I long to fill.
Yet it just seems to be getting deeper every time I try to fill it.
What is it I want?
What is it that I long for?
This emptiness is like a black hole that just sucks everything into oblivion...
It is like sucking the life out of me...
Why do I feel the way I feel?
Why can't I just be like any other teenager...
Why must I feel these feelings?
Every second I hope and every second I wish with all my heart, just leaves me with more pain...
I know that I am causing it but I just don't want to stop it...
So why must everything be mixed up?
Why can't my life be in order and not in a never ending mess?
Why can't things be what I want it to be...
Why must they be a opposition in everything?
This emptiness is what I wish to fill but sadly I loss myself every time I fail.
So please just be what I want it to be.
Let my desire turn into reality and my feeling be known to the world.
Well that is what I am currently feeling and what I hope it will turn out to be like...
Fight on 9:14 PM
