Monday, March 30, 2009

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Hey! Hahas! This past 2 days is FUN! I must say the course on achieving success is bloody fun hahas! Actually not really but yeah still FUN! Coach Isaac and Coach Emma are wonderful coach! Hahas!

Yesterday:
Was late yet was not scolded =) Hahas! To tell you the truth I lazy type ar... So basically it was fun =)

Today:
Reached so called on time ar... Hahas =) First part was again doing our DISC. This year my personality changed! I am more S no than C. Last year was S and C same, this year super high S =) Hell as like always certain part is so true! Next we did was Left or Right brain. Again this year I changed from a left to a balance =) Hahas! Had lunch this time round instead of buying ice blended like yesterday, I bought Slurpee or whatever. Now got a sore throat... Haizzz! So anyways had fun. When back and continued with the second part which was what type of learner we are. I am a Visual learner. I think same as last year? Hahas! Okay never mind. Oh! 1 amazing fact. Out of the RAYS, I am always the odd 1 out. All 3 of them are like I and I am an S. All three of them are right brain I am balance. All three of them are Audio, I am Visual. Weird huh? How different I am from them O.o Oh! Had a break in between. When to slack around. Till Y started pouring water from my bottle on R and S. Lol! I made stupid remarks which I would not type here like duh? Lol. Wah I tell you Y in total wet 4 people including me -.-" She got wet 2 times 1 by me la... Anyways next was about ourselves. Either we are a charcoal, fuel or catalyst. I am a charcoal whereas the three of them again fuel... Oh! 1 fact, top 3 in class are charcoal... Meaning we have low self-confidence and not motivated or so la... I rate my motivation as 5 actually wanted to go lower... So people like find it weird la... Anyways Coach Isaac from a "This is not a motivational course but instead a something course." I forget lol. To a "I guess I must try to motivate you guys." Cause he said that never before he see the top few in class are charcoal. Not confident in themselves. He gave us a talk and I must say it is inspiring =D But some part for me is the opposite of what he said... Anyways I will try to change myself. Oh! We also made Paper ball as an activity as to see what type of learners we are. Hahas! Photos at the bottom. Anyways stayed back and a lot of things happened. Shall not elaborate. Anyways that's all bye!

I am sorry that for some reason today I can't seem to say a lot of things. Even though I want to help you, it seems like I can't do anything. This reminds me of when I was in kindergarten, when 1 of my friend cried for some reason, next thing I know, I too cried. I seems like I am back to where I started from, a helpless child who is powerless not able to help his friend. My reason from what I learn and what I am, is because I want to see those around me happy. Not sad. If sad, I want to cheer them up. It seems like this time round I am lost for words as I guess I don't have much experience to help this time round. Guess 1 thing for sure is, my future job is not a councillor. I am just a teenager who is powerless I guess? Anyways, I hope for the best, I hope that everything would be alright. I hope that everything can be settle soon. As fights between friends in what that can hurt me... As what a wise person said to me, I can only stand by and be there to help when there is a need to and just let nature take it's course. Guys I seriously hope and wish for things to be back to normal...

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Back! Hahas! Been lazy to update... Nothing much to talked about anyways(I thought at first) -.- This is going to be a very long post.

Thursday:
Nothing much happened... More Like I can't remember? So anyways blah3... Stayed back after school just to teach Razy POA. See I am such a good friend =p So anyways before we started decided to go buy food. Met someone O.o Felt awkward for some reason -.- Guess I am just fulfilling my promise? Who knows. Decided to buy carrot cake. I must say our school carrot cake is damn unique. Usually it will be medium hard but for some reason it very soft and I must say I kind of had enough of it after awhile. Ate outside the library lvl 2 hahas. So anyways teach him and I must say it was tiring o.o Been awhile since I stayed back to do POA... So anyways took a cab home courtesy of Razy. Hahas! Thanks!

Friday:
Went to school with Putera. I arrived first and he came later. He asked if the bus came already and I say no. Then he asked if the bus that was coming is 66 and for some reason I said "I cannot see" rather loudly... Maybe wearing my earpiece made it seem soft o.o. Inside the bus, sad beside him and I was carrying the Ruby mini flag pole that I brought home after sports day. He asked whether I need to return it or not. Again i replied "Like duh!" like forcefully. Guess I was pissed about yesterday and I took out my anger on him? Anyways I want to say "Sorry Putera!"

Had Ruby meeting and was told come for the photo taking at 3pm. So when back to chem lab for lesson. Got back report slip and I must say I am quite disappointed at the same time slightly happy with my result. I was mainly disappointed as I seriously failed both my languages... English is a E8 whereas Malay is a F9... So fucking shitty sia! Lucky the rest of the subject cheered me up. Got A1 and A2 =3 Imagine what will happen if I could pass my English. That would be cool! So anyways I need to better improve on my A.maths, Combined Science, Combined Humanities and most important of all is my LANGUAGES! Gonna work hard for my MYE which is coming soon. Oh! The exam time table is totally messed up! 1 day I got 3 different subject! That is S.s, Chem practical and POA. Like WTF! 3 subject in a day?! I can die! No last minute study this time round... So anyways A.maths slacked. Did filing for 2 periods. Last period started new topic. Maxima and Minima -.- I understand for now...

So anyways had recess RAYS, Nadiah, Aaron, MJ, Amman and a lot more people. Too many hahas! S seriously shooed 2 lower sec to make space for the rest lol. Everyone together almost conquered the whole table =) It was quite cool almost looked like it was our class table. So anyways after eating was chatting with them when suddenly ice cubes where flying into our direction. Didn't thought much about it till when ice cube flew onto my hand while I was drinking. I was like WTF! Turned around to look for the coward. Didn't see anything. Continued talking and suddenly a spoon flew and landed in front of where I was sitting... Lucky it didn't hit me. It was a chinese spoon so you know... Turned around and there they were those fucking cowards who threw all of those things. R saw first and when to see what was going on, suddenly a fork flew passed my pants! A FUCKING FORK! It was so disgusting! Lucky it had a slight brushed and not landed on my pants! Stupid delinquent no brain pigs! Amman identified the bastard and said that they were aiming for him. I asked why and he said they were not happy with him. Then Amman threw a ice cube at them. I LOL hard! Hit directly on the head! Hahas! R came back and asked why they were targeting him. Said they were unhappy with him for he had punished them once I think during cca. So anyways decided to go off since we didn't want anymore flying things... Oh! Thanks Amman for the water chestnut lol =D Decided to go back to class when half way I suggested we sat at the basket ball court and watch R and the rest play "Basketball" actually not basket ball la. They we fooling around... I can't remember who but 1 went to climbed the basketball pole -.- Monkeys hahas! Since everyone cleared out decided to sit at the bench beside the notice board. Talked about a lot of stuff =) Went back to class and it was time for assembly.

Main focus for assembly was canning! 3 people was canned and I must say their face look like shit? The ugly face... Oh! Talked to Wei Kiat and asked him to sit behind so I can talk to him. Lol! Wanted to know his result like duh? He didn't get back so told him mine's and asked if I could see his later. So anyways watch and listen to the talked on the YOG by my form teacher, Mr Ang. Proud of him sia! He was nominated as Mr something hahas for showing the value of compassion. =) Oh! Mr Tan got Mr Strong for showing the value of resilience. Hahas! So anyways stayed back to school as it was raining and the flag pole was killing me... Skipped! Went for Malay Remedial. Did MCQ comprehension. When to hall for the Ruby photo taking. Ebenthough Farhan went first ended up I reaching first. So anyways stand at the back holding the banner as I was in uniform. On my right side was weirdo... Unlike my left side he was sane =) So anyways Farhan called me and I told he I was inside. So lucky he stand on my left so the weirdo was not beside me thank goodness. Oh! We were told to each wear a medal even though some didn't take part in the running/field events. Hahas! Got a Bronze medal -.- Wanted a Gold 1 hahas! So anyways took formal photos. Then it was informal next. The guys at the back (including me) put our hand around the person on the left of us the shoulder. Oh! First part put a pom-pom on my head second threw a pom-pom to the front. Hahas! Had fun! =D Sad to say not many of the cheer team people came. Irwin, Wei Kiat, Nazrul for example were missing as they had NCC camp lol. Anyways when back home and slacked. Watched anime in the middle of the night.

Saturday:
Slacked at home and was bored to death! Went out at night to eat at Changi Village. As usually ate the Roti John! Hahas! I would always buy that when I visit the place. Lol! So anyways when home and had a nap. Woke up read newspaper at 3am+ in the morning. Watch more anime and sleep around 10am?

Sunday:
Woke up and here I am typing this post and slacking at the same time. I have no life... I WANT TO GO OUT! ANYONE?! Oh! I suggested to the RAYS that we should go cycling or rollerblading. Hope it does come true. Hahas! Anyways Mon - Wed have course... So hope it's gonna be fun and maybe free food? Hope it's a buffet hahas! Hahas! Anyways that's all for now. No photos for this post sadly... All out of photos... So no complaints! Hahas =)

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

I am emotionally drained today. I guess a small part of me just couldn't hang on like it always did. Well I am tired now guess I would be sleeping soon. Hahas! For the first time I sleep way before 12am..... Not gonna do any homework today..... No mood and I think seeing any homework would kill me..... I wish I could just fly to somewhere far away where I could forget about everything. I guess I am most fragile right now. Going to have to recover quick as when I wake up, I hope to be a stronger me.....

I wish you could understand where I am coming from.
I wish you would just stop and think for a bit.
I wish that it didn't have to happen.
I wish that we could just forget it after we wake up.
I wish for things to change.
I wish for a better future.

I want you to know that I am sorry.
I want you to know that I don't mean what I say.

That is all I got to say.

I wish I was a star.

Fly me to the moon and I'll be played amongst the stars

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

~Mixed Fellings~

I am having mix feelings right now....
Not sure of what to do...
Why am I feeling this way?
The emptiness that I long to fill.
Yet it just seems to be getting deeper every time I try to fill it.
What is it I want?
What is it that I long for?
This emptiness is like a black hole that just sucks everything into oblivion...
It is like sucking the life out of me...
Why do I feel the way I feel?
Why can't I just be like any other teenager...
Why must I feel these feelings?
Every second I hope and every second I wish with all my heart, just leaves me with more pain...
I know that I am causing it but I just don't want to stop it...
So why must everything be mixed up?
Why can't my life be in order and not in a never ending mess?
Why can't things be what I want it to be...
Why must they be a opposition in everything?
This emptiness is what I wish to fill but sadly I loss myself every time I fail.
So please just be what I want it to be.
Let my desire turn into reality and my feeling be known to the world.

Well that is what I am currently feeling and what I hope it will turn out to be like...

Monday, March 9, 2009

I am loving it! Okay so the wedding sucks! So many people -.- Hell I hate it! Even I go like 4pm it's like the wedding just started..... So anyways stay for 1h or so..... Went home rest for awhile and went out again. When to Queentown or was it Queen'stown or Queenstown O.o not sure which hahas! Anyways bought a new shoes since the old is spoilt. Anyways was messaging Irwin then he ask me a bloody private question...... Wah! Should not have siad what I said -.- Anyways got to know him better and he ar..... I don't know what to say. Anyways off to look for Edison Chen photo need to confirm if someone I know looks like him =3 Lol! Bye!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Maybe going to a wedding today O.o Who knows feel like no mood since I don't know who the hell is the person marrying beisde the fact that he/she is a relative of mine -.- So either out to a wedding or out for fun ._. Need by new school shoes since my current 1 is dirty from yesterday sports day. Need buy lots of things but no money -.-" Just you wait I will get what I want soon enough =)

Saturday, March 7, 2009

OMG! Today was sports day! So woke up at 5:15 slept like only 2hours? Turned here and there could not sleep for some reason..... Anyways woke up when to the stadium with Muhsin and Nazrul took 506. Reached there saw the girls getting their hair done and all hahas! Damn weird! Oh! Irwin go say something weird which he thought I mean. Shall not elaborate here lol. Put my bag and was told to tie a piece of cloth on our wrist. Irwin did it for me and I when to look around. The sky was still dark and it was nice and cooling =) So anyways after awhile assemble in our class line and I was the first boy to come -.- slow but surely 1 after another came. Recited the pledge and when to assemble for the march pass contingent. There saw Wei Kiat! Hahas! So did the march pass contingent and I have to tell you, my ears was in pain from the screaming lol! Reach the end and everyone was blur on what today lol.



So when back to ruby stand. Was idling about when Mr Muhammad ask me to hold the flag O.o So hold and it was getting darker as the dark clouds were heading for us. Then someone says it's gonna get dark and gonna rain. Then I go say "look at the brighter side." Then I go point at the sunny part of the sky la and Irwin go look and somehow I thought it was lame hahas! So waited around, then the running event began, I pity the athletes sia! Raining still have to go..... So anyways flag here and there, switch with Irwin went to drink water and rest. Then go back and wave here and there. Switch places and I took the big flag hahas! Later part had to go lead the cheer and we all got scolding for slacking and doing makeup. Had fun la! Then I go swing the RUBY house flag which was fun! Cheer here and there swing here and there. Ate cake from Razy for awhile and so on. Farhan knows how to crap. Hahas! Skip!



When to change into our attire for the cheer. Borrowed Irwin hair wax and when to style my hair. COOL! Hahas! Came back, a teacher sprayed a bit of red dye/paint on my hair. SO COOL! Sadly the paint was finishing so not much dye..... Got to say it was damn nice! Girls hair was dyed sliver while most boys red. I must admit those with long hair for the boys look nice with the dye. Like Irwin and Farhan lol! Wear another cloth this time sliver colour on the left wrist and a long one as a headband. Again Irwin helped me with the tying while I helped him tie his and Farhan's. So continued the cheer. Half way asked Nadiah to help me since I wanted to practice the lifting of people. Managed to do it finally! Then everyone started to practice lol! before that I substitute for my teammate to practice. Stand at the front of the stands and we cheer along hahas! Then I go take the flag and play with it from Irwin while Zihan keep asking if can go up already since she didn't want to stand in front like a rock O.o When up for awhile and when to practice. Did it in fast forward mode lol! After that was the teacher race took the house flag and when to the track there with Nadiah and cheer like never cheer before hahas! After that train a bit more and had a small brief before we when down to prepare for the cheer competition. Took all the things and got ready.



Okay we were waiting for who to start first and for some reason we were chosen first..... So settle the props. Got into persition and we were off! Had fun not much mistake. I step on Chee Hean (sorry about the spelling) foot..... So anyways finished but we didn't do our best since the sound system SUCKS! Anyways when to our house section and sat down. Sat beside Irwin and Huda. Hahas! Huda and me we think alike la. Keep saying that other houses cheer SUCKS! But it is the truth -.- Every time look at Irwin face, he seems pissed with something, so asked if he okay or not la. He said okay so okay lor. Then I thought of using the cardboard to cool him down hahas! Used it to fan, soon others followed. Wei Kiat was behind and talked to him for awhile. Gave Wei Kiat the "fan" and asked Irwin to fan me in the mean time. So basically watching the other house is boring,,,,, They all SUCKS! So anyways sit and watch for awhile. Then had prize presentation. Had to spread about and lead the cheer. I make some weird friends.....



Anyways fast forward to the ending of the athletes presentation. The whole cheer team gathered and was told to clap for which every house win the cheer competition and the house trophy. Had a hand together encouragement. So still had a bit of time so we huddle together and again we hoped for the best. So anyways they announce the 4th and 3rd, finally the 2nd and we started to cheer! Mr Muhd asked us to quiet down and when we finally hear ruby, we jump about like crazy people! Basically we won first for the cheer competition. Was jumping everywhere! Irwin and I were like going around saying we won we won hahas! So next was the house winner. They announce the other house except for the 1st and 2nd place house. They called out Topaz and we were like 2nd then it was true! So basically when we hear Ruby won. AGAIN WE JUMPED FOR JOY!!!!! IRWIN WAS LIKE DAMN HAPPY SIA! He go pull me some more. Hahas! I jumped till I feel the mud under my feet sank O.o I shout like I never shout before because I was too happy la! After that the cheer team cheer our special victory cheer. Hahas! Had fun! Then when back to our stand and Farhan started to sing "We are the champion!" I sang what I know la which was COOL! Had to go back and collect a few of our items at the track. Anyways had to clean up. Pack here and there. Again when taking off the head band, I asked Irwin to help me but instead I forget that I could just pull it out..... So collected the cloths and put it aside, Everyone was dismissed.

Was told to clean up but only Irwin did so helped him la! When to meet Mrs Tang for a briefing on the kindness cheer competition and end up only one person joining. So anyways was told to think about it..... Obviously I won't go have to study okay! Then when back to the stand to take a group photo. Hold the banner at the back. Anyways when leaving I thought of taking photo but had to help carry things so said bye to Irwin and the rest. Talked to Mrs Tang and she remembered me! Hahas! I told her about my paper and I forget what she said..... So carried to the HOD of P.E. car and found out my chocolate melt..... and my hand phone was also sticky thanks to it saw Irwin and said bye again and when to the toilet to wash up. After that when back to the car and brought home 3 small flags. When to eat at Mac with Nazrul.

Met Putera and Mahathir. Joined them la. Bought Fillet O Fish, while Putera bought McSpicy burger or something while the other 2 bought Big Mac. I keep getting bullied by them, especially Putera..... He then said he was joking :O Changed pants while Mahathir bought sundaes. Came back and talk for a bit and I asked Mahathir to put a bit of the vanilla ice cream into my coke. Putera again say I am weird and they started saying "Jasak die la, asalkan die bahagia." tsk! Then I did another weird thing mix curry sauce and barbecue sauce together. Once again Putera asked what I was doing say I mixing for fun then he go say "Oh! Ingatkan kau nak minum." I did what he say I only wanted to taste it.... Then Putera again say "Eh! Minum pulak." I said no and he was like "Aku nampak." =3 Then he go say I am like Akhbar...... =.=" So anyways when off to take 66 home. Was playing with my flag pole when Putera give me the look at what he is doing look. I overshot the traffic light for a bit and again they say "Jasak die la, asalkan die bahagia." So anyways crossed the road and waited for the bus. Putera was sitting on the railing while I play with the flag pole. Sheaujing was like a few meters away from me and I never see her?! Anyways I forget what I asked Putera and I say he shy or something. Then he say "Come, duduk la kat sini." Pointing beside him. So I sat down for awhile la. Then we had a "sword" fight so yeah was fun. I keep poking his stomach hohoho! I asked what his future job is la and he never say anything. So we crapped more. When into the line and he gave a mantoes gum. Cool! Talk a bit and he asked me to shhhh..... 2nd 60 came and we decided to take 60 instead. In the bus talked awhile and after that everything was quiet. Half way something cute happened. Glad I was there and could get the chance to look at the cuteness. Hahas! Sad it last only awhile which it could be an eternity hahas like I wish for the time to spend with the cheer team to be longer..... I got take things la! Anyways when drop off with Putera and we went our saperate ways. When home look in the mirror and I LOVE my hair! Yet I wish for Irwin's hair. Cooler =D Anyways talked on msn and message here and there. Overall today was a fun day and I wish I could have a repeat of today..... Anyways I am glad to be on the cheer team and meet new friends =) I can say I have a new friend which is Irwin hahas! Like DUH! Gonna go sleep now too tired =) I get to see and feel 2 wonderful feelings today and I hope to feel it again hahas! Bye! (Now is 3:15 too like 4hours + with a lot of breaks in between =D)




Sports day in a few more hours! I am gonna give my best and do what I can for the cheerteam competition =) Hahas! So yeah I will update more tomorrow hope to take photos =) Oh! I gonna have to wake up at 5am~ So yeah gonna sleep soon and like one part of Winnie The Pooh theme song, "I got to wake up. I got to get going. I gonna meet a friend of mine." Like it say I gonna meet a friend of mine and go together =) Sadly the RAYS won't be going out tomorrow. Also lot of good news for most of the RAYS member lol =) I am happy for them. Hehehe =3 Oh Irwin is damn funny. That's all =)

PROFILE

About me.
Muhammand Alif
Bedok Green Sec School
Studying in class 4E3
Classes:1/B, 2/B, 3/3, 4E3
AnimeforLife/Prince Noctis!
16 years old
17 on 9/6/2010
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l Wishes l
Take pictures with my friends =)
A new bag
A watch
Good grades for my MYE
To be my trueself
To say what I mean

l Likes l
♥My one and only family! Inculding my pets!
♥My friends!
♥Animes!
♥Games!
♥Many many more~

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Hateful people
Betrayers
Show-offs
Liars
Hurtful people.....

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